Happily lonesome

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So.  I thought maybe today I would write some thoughts on things.   This feels kind of stupid, but whatever.  I am an introvert.  You might not realize it when you hang out with me, and it's not really something I focus on a lot, I just am, but it's true.  I love people, and I'm usually pretty outgoing and quite talkative.  I sing in public and dance and tease people incessantly, sometimes too much.  I am not shy, but I need my "alone" time, or at least down time with people who don't care if I smile or not.  

SO FOR THOSE DAYS YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO SMILE:

1.  Music.  I don't know about you, but when I plug in my music, I feel happily invisible, and usually people ignore me because they think I can't hear them.  And sometimes, I just plug in my headphones without even listening to music.  Is that weird?  I feel like I'm in my own little world then, it's nice.  ;)

2.  Reading, baking, drawing.  Something that keeps you busy: you're doing something, not just lazing around.

3.  Journaling.  Whether you need to write out your feelings, or just write, or maybe more creatively you want to cut out pictures and words and assemble with care, just do something. 

4.  Make sure the people around you know that sometimes you just want to be left alone(or whichever).  Sometimes I don't communicate so well, and now we have this little joke around my house.  I will sometimes just not smile.  If I'm tired or in a bad mood or just don't feel like spending energy- basically any time that a smile wouldn't be genuine- I just don't waste my facial muscles, and I kind of have a frowney face.  But if someone asked me what was wrong and I didn't feel like telling them, then I would just say "this is my normal face" i.e. nothing's wrong.  So my family makes fun of me sometimes, they tease me when I frown, and if someone asks if something's wrong my siblings will answer for me- "oh, that's just her normal face." 

5. Go do something.  No matter how small, get out and do something, even if it just takes a few minutes, and no one even notices you're gone, feeling accomplished is nice.  If that means walking around outside for a couple minutes with your camera, or swinging on a swing, or maybe even doing some random task you've been meaning to do, just do it.  Dissapearing for a few minutes can fix my mood. 

6.  Go "do" something #2.  I'm kind of a lame person, and I regretably waited waay too long to get my permit, and so I still do not have my license.  As a result, I cannot run my own errands, but I can accompany my mother.  I'll just sit in the car and doodle sometimes but still, it's nice to just be pretending to do something. 

7.  Be friends with your family.  You may be able to avoid other people, but you cannot avoid your family.  They're probably the people who know you best and love you best.  Cherish them.

So.  Yeah.  Have a happy thursday.  

l.